Fucking Life BS

First, I would like to start off with a fuck you to Facebook who wants me to update this fun frivolous photo of my dead mother laughing with a funny pool float she bought during her last summer on this Earth. 

Also, work sucks.  You know, status quo, now.  We’ve met about half of our “must eliminate ” quota from this fine government regime.  Only 323 more positions to eliminate.  They’ll all take the buy out, right?  Right? Even though literally no one is hiring right now?  It’s totally gonna be fine. 

Also, I called my sister for her birthday.  Man that put me in a dark place.  Like just threw me back into that born-and-raised Codependent Life.  I resisted any urge to reach out to any other family.  To try and hedge against the tsunami coming.  To warn them.  To yell OH MY GOD WHAT’S GOING TO HAPPEN?  To gossip. 

I do feel that codependency guilt.  Like a lot.  I’m not OK.  But my husband is giving me strength to keep my mouth shut and stay out of that business.  Not my business. 

But like isn’t it?  Now I’m just feeling even more guilty about all the BS shoved on my family.  But like, they don’t HAVE to pick up the bullshit.  If anything, my brother and his family proved that this year.  They were shunning my cold heartedness last time dad almost died and babysitting him 24/7.  They have completely abstained this time.  So like, it can be done by not JUST me.  SIL is talking about how sister is mad at her for not helping.  Yeah, welcome to my world.  Y’all sure judged me last time.  See how it is?

Ugh.  Family trauma.  Dead mom.  POS dad keeps almost dying and now needs 24/7 care but only his girl friend and one sister are taking care of him and they’re drowning.  And of course very resentful of the rest of us.

And now the rest of this other sister bullshit is coming at them and they don’t even know it’s coming.  ONLY I KNOW. 

I mean at least no one’s gonna ask us for money.  Husband got laid off and the entire US wants me to lose my job and y’all voted for it.  So nope, we poor.  Keep off the lawn. 

Speaking of lawn, there was a turtle in the yard today. 

That is all.