I just sent this text to my besties:
“My bestest buddies. I hate who I have become. And that is the crazy lunatic on the street corner yelling about the end of the world. No really. Every bit of life seems covered in the black ink of a trump-musk-lovecraftian-cephalapod with tentacles reaching into every thing.
I can’t seem to escape it. It’s everywhere. I feel like America is just doomed and I need to leave the country.
I’m serious.
If I lose my shitty fucking job, I don’t have health insurance and I can’t live without health insurance and there’s no jobs here.
I miss my mother so much lately. I almost reflexively called her leaving work the other day. At least I don’t have to see her become a MAGA cultist cause she sure would have and I don’t know how I’d have been able to maintain our relationship as it was.
An online buddy messaged to commiserate about *gestures broadly* and I just wanted for like an hour. Cause that’s me now. I’m like the opposite of whatever a MAGA cultist is. Like if they’re Q-Anon, im like Z-laid-Bare.
I went with Z because Q is round and curly and Z is straight and spiky.
How are you getting through?
Send me happy pictures of you enjoying life. I’m laying on my couch. Maybe I can nap. “
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Here’s me ranting of over an hour to someone who tried to talk to me:
“I hate this place”
You sent: Same same same
*Husband* won’t move though
Like fucking everyone loves Germany
We know people who worked there for years
He’s like “it’s too close to Russia”
AMERICA IS TOO CLOSE TO RUSSIA RIGHT NOW
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How on Earth can a trumper be married to a non?
Cause I can’t even get online and play pinochle with my in laws LOL
Cause I got nothing nice to say
Don’t ask me how I am. Don’t ask about my job. Don’t ask about my hobbies. Don’t ask about my friends.
TRUMP HAS DESTROYED EVERYTHING
we are a military town. Period
It’s being destroyed and half the people here voted for it
We were purple at best
Everyone is losing their damn jobs
Including my husband
Every single company is on a strict hiring freeze
Our savings and retirement has TANKED
my job is constantly under threat
I’m one of those understandable federal workers y’all hate so much
They crippled the unions
I get near DAILY email updates about work changes
4 Cadbury Eggs is NINE DOLLARS
Boardgames are dead
Indi Kickstarters can’t function now
Ive got 200$ in board games I likely will never get now
One was supposed to ship in July.
Oh and Nintendo halted all presales of the new switch 2 and Mario kart to the US
My friend lost her job at ** because she was a contractor and wanted to leave her contractor. She had an offer they couldn’t meet. ** tried everything to hire her, but it’s a hiring freeze. There’s nothing they could do to keep her
Oh we’re going into a depression
Our town is already on the brink
My whole family voted for this
And *husband*’s parents did
And his mom keeps posting crazy as fuck trumper cult shit
Calling the left the Nazis
WTF
and he’s talking about sending US citizens to El Salvador prisons
And he put out another damn EO that federal workers who work on policies are now a new category that can be fired if they don’t do what the president wants
It’s sounds fake, but that’s legit what it says in those words
So only yes men, not actual advisors
Legally
He’s in contempt of the damn supreme court
The unions were trying to fight. And they cut all the autodeduct union dues
Illegally, of course, but most of this shit is
But good luck fighting it with no money
*Husband*’s bro and sis aren’t MAGA thank god
But I’ve honestly gone crazy
I’m ranting as much as a MAGA person
I’m unpleasant
I’m furious
And I can’t ignore it CAUSE ITS MY JOB
Like I can’t stop ranting about this shit because if you ask me about ANYTHING, Trump has wrecked it
Fuck, last night I got a cat bed ad that they were having to close because they can’t source their wool from the US
This is insane
I want to leave but *Husband* won’t hear it
Plus I think he thinks I’m joking
I suggested Germany since we have family that lived there for years on work
Or Scotland. They speak English! Louie wouldn’t even have to go into quarantine
He doesn’t even have a job so only one of us has to get one
There won’t be any jobs here anytime soon
And if I lose mine, we don’t have insurance
And they are restructuring the DOD and literally no one has any idea what that means
Someone in a ** all hands asked if ** might get cut and the answer was WE DON’T KNOW
And it’s so damn stupid
Every single federal salary is less than 4% of our budget
So it’s all for show
And my MAGA family wants to go to a wedding they have to fly to. So they need Star IDs. But every StarID office is booked out for months all over the state and the wedding is next month
Oh you know why? Those were FEDERAL WORKERS
And they’re legit complaining
Also, you’ve had like a decade to get this
Yeah. I’m so sad because for some weird reason the *city* Reddit is just people who actively hate *city*. And they’re cheering this shit
Cause they see all the engineers as snobs or whatever
Oh and I’ve forgotten return to office
It’s hell
And so stupid
None of our work has changed, we’re still on all TEAMS calls, just with other people on the same or different TEAMS calls in the same room with us
Broken pipes
Buildings that haven’t been kept up since 2000
Air quality that fails national standards
Internet infrastructure that can’t keep up
And pipes that literally can’t handle all these people using the toilets
We got administrative leave the other day cause they revoked telework and the heat didn’t work LOL
And a lot of the buildings are completely given up or demoed. So the space everyone had previously isn’t there
And everyone’s just like “oh poor you, you have to go to the office like the rest of us”
My building is getting a new roof RIGHT NOW and the tar smell and burnt rubber smell makes my eyes literally water
But there’s signs posted everywhere that it’s not toxic!
So see, I’m just a mad woman now
I got another antianxiety pill LOL
I think we could immigrate if we wanted. And I totally would
And dude. Dude. This is just the beginning
Tomorrow trump gets the 90 day report on the border
He can declare martial law
And all these CHRISTIANS
Don’t care about the immigrants
But they post that whole “they came for the Jews and I said nothing …” Shit
ARE YOU FUCKING BLIND
EXACTLY!
And Jesus Jesus Jesus
That cabinet?
Kennedy?
Everyone’s like it’ll change in 4 years. There’s checks and balances
If the government collapsed, no it won’t
And Trump is literally in contempt of the SUPREME COURT
and listen I hate that smug motherfucker so much and I’d take a bullet for him cause YOU WILL NOT MAKE HIM A MARTYR
I haven’t seen any actual trumpers I know show regret yet
They spout his lies
Just blatant fucking lies LOL
Like saying that poor Maryland guy was in court multiple times and found to be a gang member
They said that
On TV
But like dude, that’s not remotely in the realm of truth
I want to say you can’t just LIE
But apparently, you totally can
And are we actually going to invade Greenland? I honestly think we are
Now our allies AND our enemies hate us
And DOGE took all the classified info from every database
They have all the info for everyone. Voting registration, immigration status
They literally just marked a ton of legal immigrants as dead in the ss system
And they ACTUALLY SAID they want to “make their lives do difficult they will self deport”
Soon anyone anti Trump in high position will be a terrorist and in El Salvador
He lined it all up already
Especially with yesterday’s EO
That means everyone in Congress who disagrees
Senate
“Policy makers”
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Oh the majority of Christians have never followed anything Christ actually said
It makes me sad it’s so easy to get into heaven but I’m supposed to rejoice in their salvation
But like… Can they go now?
OMG and war plans on a phone chat app
My god
I need more pills
I’m not gonna make it
And *Husband* is just like you gotta get off the news
You gotta get off social media
Stop reading reddit
stop watching YouTube
These are what I do
I can’t even follow gaming now cause board games and Mario kart got fucked
Ugh. I hate myself now. I hate who I’ve become. I hate what this country has become
I’m going to get ice cream
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Also, there is family DRAMA going down. Dad’s in the hospital again. I got disowned last time over this. Now it’s happening again. Yay, text messages…